You know, I didn't want to write on here today. Actually I wanted to call it good and be done. Ive had moments where I became worried how it was being perceived, if I was offending, if i was truly obeying the Lord, if I was building, or if I was tearing. If I was writing good enough, clear enough, if it was worth it.
Today it was made clear that I need to push on, keep writing, stop worrying. My writing was just what it is needed to be, as clear and deep as it should. Nothing more, nothing less
A word came to mind just now as I had no idea on what to write. Finish. This is about finishing the work that Christ put in me, finishing myself. Finishing the testimony of what Christ has done, doing, and will do.
Luke 14
28 “Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Won’t you first sit down and estimate the cost to see if you have enough money to complete it? 29 For if you lay the foundation and are not able to finish it, everyone who sees it will ridicule you, 30 saying, ‘This person began to build and wasn’t able to finish.’
31 “Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Won’t he first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? 32 If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms of peace. 33 In the same way, those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples.
34 “Salt is good, but if it loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? 35 It is fit neither for the soil nor for the manure pile; it is thrown out.
“Whoever has ears to hear, let them hear.”
You see, I am giving testimony of Gods love and His faithfulness to complete the work he begins in all of us, BUT it takes faith. I have faith in God that he is using me to glorify Him. If only one, that is sufficient. I am not being used to glorify myself, no not at all. I am not a great writer, I am not a great pastor. The motivations of my heart are pure, the motivations of my heart are to spread the Gospel to the best of my ability on any given day or topic. The motivations of my heart are to push and challenge myself, having faith in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ that He will complete in me the work He began. I can not complete the work myself, all I can do is obey and submit. If I will not remain obedient and open, the work will not complete, the growth will stunt, I will survive, not thrive. I am me, I am sent to be a broadsword of truth in this lifetime. Broadswords are not pretty, they will require close combat.
So what I hope to impart on people today is this. When something feels uncomfortable, it is not necessarily a bad thing. When you feel like you should stop, stop and think about the motivations on why you should stop. If the motivations are because it is easier to stop, it is safer to stop...your motivations could very well be wrong. I have had plenty of thoughts of this is too difficult, it is not safe, I am being vulnerable, but I will push on(my walk with Christ).
Being a disciple of Christ is not easy, to spread the Gospel is not easy. I have no faith in myself, as you should not either. We must put our faith in Christ to complete the work He began. I will finish my tower in due season, but I will not stop building. I will build brick by brick. My savior will provide the material and the mortar.
It is what it is, and this be it...
Today it was made clear that I need to push on, keep writing, stop worrying. My writing was just what it is needed to be, as clear and deep as it should. Nothing more, nothing less
A word came to mind just now as I had no idea on what to write. Finish. This is about finishing the work that Christ put in me, finishing myself. Finishing the testimony of what Christ has done, doing, and will do.
Luke 14
The Cost of Being a Disciple
25 Large crowds were traveling with Jesus, and turning to them he said: 26 “If anyone comes to me and does not hate father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters—yes, even their own life—such a person cannot be my disciple. 27 And whoever does not carry their cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.28 “Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Won’t you first sit down and estimate the cost to see if you have enough money to complete it? 29 For if you lay the foundation and are not able to finish it, everyone who sees it will ridicule you, 30 saying, ‘This person began to build and wasn’t able to finish.’
31 “Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Won’t he first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? 32 If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms of peace. 33 In the same way, those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples.
34 “Salt is good, but if it loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? 35 It is fit neither for the soil nor for the manure pile; it is thrown out.
“Whoever has ears to hear, let them hear.”
You see, I am giving testimony of Gods love and His faithfulness to complete the work he begins in all of us, BUT it takes faith. I have faith in God that he is using me to glorify Him. If only one, that is sufficient. I am not being used to glorify myself, no not at all. I am not a great writer, I am not a great pastor. The motivations of my heart are pure, the motivations of my heart are to spread the Gospel to the best of my ability on any given day or topic. The motivations of my heart are to push and challenge myself, having faith in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ that He will complete in me the work He began. I can not complete the work myself, all I can do is obey and submit. If I will not remain obedient and open, the work will not complete, the growth will stunt, I will survive, not thrive. I am me, I am sent to be a broadsword of truth in this lifetime. Broadswords are not pretty, they will require close combat.
So what I hope to impart on people today is this. When something feels uncomfortable, it is not necessarily a bad thing. When you feel like you should stop, stop and think about the motivations on why you should stop. If the motivations are because it is easier to stop, it is safer to stop...your motivations could very well be wrong. I have had plenty of thoughts of this is too difficult, it is not safe, I am being vulnerable, but I will push on(my walk with Christ).
Being a disciple of Christ is not easy, to spread the Gospel is not easy. I have no faith in myself, as you should not either. We must put our faith in Christ to complete the work He began. I will finish my tower in due season, but I will not stop building. I will build brick by brick. My savior will provide the material and the mortar.
It is what it is, and this be it...
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