Yup, I have had to battle my pride over the past 13 years and for many more to come. It is something that came to the forefront last year and something that I am now able to recognize and continue to fight, and allow myself to be humbled.
You see, I am at a spot now where I am truly listening and obeying to the Holy Spirit. So when I am being prideful, it is pointed out to me. I am seeing it and then submitting to humility and listening to the words of the Holy Spirit. I have had two days of humility brought to me by someone near and dear to me, my bride. Two days I am grateful for. Two days I have been challenged. Two days I have learned from. Two days I have learned about myself and my bride. I am oh so grateful for her to challenge me, to push me to be the best I can be. To have the courage to stand firm and say to her husband......I'm grateful for such a wife, grateful for humility.
I urge all of you out there, find a wife that will push and challenge you, not cower.
I urge all of you out there, truly listen not just hear your wife, never oppress her, love her.
I want to gain honor for His Kingdom, truly. I am called to be a pastor, I will be a pastor. Am I ready now? Absolutely not. Is it prideful of me to challenge the hearts of The Body. Absolutely not. If the end result is a stronger heart, then I will continue to question and push, knowing full well that the motivations of my heart are pure. The motivations of my heart are to build the strongest heart of all, the hearts of The Body.
Psalm 10
4 In his pride the wicked man does not seek him;
in all his thoughts there is no room for God.
I am called. I am called by God. I cannot do anything in this life without Him. I am expecting Him to FILL the whole room and leave me in the doorway. Leave me watching in amazement and in awe of what He has done, can do, and will do. I will continue to push. I am not afraid. I am obeying. I know where my heart is. Jesus knows where my heart is. I can do nothing without Him, but I can do all through Him who gives me strength.
It is what it is, and this be it...
You see, I am at a spot now where I am truly listening and obeying to the Holy Spirit. So when I am being prideful, it is pointed out to me. I am seeing it and then submitting to humility and listening to the words of the Holy Spirit. I have had two days of humility brought to me by someone near and dear to me, my bride. Two days I am grateful for. Two days I have been challenged. Two days I have learned from. Two days I have learned about myself and my bride. I am oh so grateful for her to challenge me, to push me to be the best I can be. To have the courage to stand firm and say to her husband......I'm grateful for such a wife, grateful for humility.
I urge all of you out there, find a wife that will push and challenge you, not cower.
I urge all of you out there, truly listen not just hear your wife, never oppress her, love her.
I want to gain honor for His Kingdom, truly. I am called to be a pastor, I will be a pastor. Am I ready now? Absolutely not. Is it prideful of me to challenge the hearts of The Body. Absolutely not. If the end result is a stronger heart, then I will continue to question and push, knowing full well that the motivations of my heart are pure. The motivations of my heart are to build the strongest heart of all, the hearts of The Body.
Psalm 10
4 In his pride the wicked man does not seek him;
in all his thoughts there is no room for God.
I am called. I am called by God. I cannot do anything in this life without Him. I am expecting Him to FILL the whole room and leave me in the doorway. Leave me watching in amazement and in awe of what He has done, can do, and will do. I will continue to push. I am not afraid. I am obeying. I know where my heart is. Jesus knows where my heart is. I can do nothing without Him, but I can do all through Him who gives me strength.
It is what it is, and this be it...
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